“Most people think life sucks, and then you die. Not me. I beg to differ. I think life sucks, then you get cancer, then your dog dies, your wife leaves you, the cancer goes into remission, you get a new dog, you get remarried, you owe ten million dollars in medical bills but you work hard for thirty-five years and you pay it back and then -- one day -- you have a massive stroke, your whole right side is paralyzed, you have to limp along the streets and speak out of the left side of your mouth and drool but you go into rehabilitation and regain the power to walk and the power to talk and then -- one day -- you step off a curb at Sixty-seventh Street, and BANG you get hit by a city bus and then you die. Maybe.”
~ Dennis Leary
Tuesday, Sept. 2 - 10:20
The third chemo treatment is looming and I’m starting to wonder if I ought to start a “Short Timer’s Calendar.”
My old writing partner, Chris Bunch, said the Short Timer’s Calendar was a morale-boosting invention of GIs who were nearing the end of their tour of duty during the Vietnam War.
It worked like this: Say you have sixty days to go before you can fly the Freedom Bird home. You make a calendar that goes from one to sixty. Then each morning you cross off the previous day so you can see the time diminish before your eyes: 59, days, 58, days, 57, days and so on.
Adds a little shine to the day, right?
Now, Chris said the best calendar trick of all was to turn everything on its head. Instead of going: 56, 55, 54… You say, fifty two and a wake up (instead of 53) and fifty one and a wake up, instead of 52)
Bam! Thinking that way, the whole day cheers the hell up.
My basic Colon Cancer Chemo tour of duty is six months. The chemo treatments are every two weeks, which would make it a total of twelve sessions. (The treatments run for 48 hours each time)
I’m a day away from the third treatment, which means after this I’ll have nine more to go. But in my chemo short timer it would be eight and a wake up, (for nine). The next time it would be Seven and a wake up, (instead of eight) and so on.
So, stay tuned Gentle Readers and we shall see what we shall see.
Wednesday, Sept. 8, 8:33 a.m.
Getting ready for the 9:30 a.m. chemo session. Got my Kindle loaded. Ditto my audiobook device. Got the anti-nausea ginger pops tucked in my bag. And just before I go I’ll scoff a couple of special cookies sent to me from friends who live in a more enlightened state.
I call it, Party Time In Chemo Land.
Faint hope, huh?
Faint hope, huh?
Wednesday, Sept. 3, 1:25 p.m.
Knocking on all the wood in the house – The cookies worked!
I’ll test them again tomorrow for the second session.
Thursday, Sept. 4, 9:03 a.m.
The cookie effect was short-lived. Right now I’m feeling – to use precise medical terminology – effing lousy.
Getting set for my second chemo go-around. Will try the cookies strategy again.
Thursday, Sept. 4 – 3:05
Yech! You hear me? Yech!
Friday, Sept. 5 – 10:41
Things calmed down as the day progressed. By 7 p.m. I could keep down a cup of chicken broth and toast with a little melted soy cheese. Had a decent night’s sleep, a marked contrast to last time.
Meanwhile, there’s 8.1 mls of roach poison left in the CADD pump. Due at the outpatient clinic at 1 p.m. to have myself de-ported. They’ll bandage over the port so the skin heals. Then I have fourteen days until the next go around.
Saturday and Sunday (Sept. 6 & 7) All Day
Had a miserable Saturday and particularly difficult Saturday night. Spent Sunday on the couch with the New York Times trying to recuperate. Had a relapse midday. Recovered in time for 60 Minutes. Then spent another bad night.
Monday, Sept. 8 – 9:43 a.m.
Feeling better. It’s a beautiful South Florida day and from my office window I can see the fish leaping in the canal and the iguanas in their Jurassic poses on the lawn. I’m hoping this will be like the other two sessions and each day I’ll feel better until the fourth round of poisoning commences.
In the middle of all this there was one amazingly cheery moment early on that has percolated throughout the ordeal.
My wife, Kathryn, conspired with Pam Elson, sister of the late Peter Elson – an extraordinary British artist who limned two of the three covers of the European editions of the Timura Trilogy. The first was When The Gods Slept, the second, Wolves Of The Gods. Tragically, Peter died at the height of his powers at age forty seven and the third cover (The Gods Awaken) was painted – in the same style – by another artist.
One of the remarkable things about the cover paintings is how insightful Peter was. I wrote the books when we were living in New Mexico. We lived outside the little town of Truth Or Consequences. My office window overlooked the Gila National Forest. It was a beautiful desert scene with cacti and other hardy growth, and it teemed with animal life. (Remind me to tell you about my pet road runner sometime. Beep. Beep.) The whole scene was framed by a fabulous mountain range that continually changed colors from deep blue to a hazy gold.
The sunsets were astounding. Matched, in my experience, only by the Mediterranean sunsets viewed from the Troodos Mountains of Cyprus. We were about a mile high so sometimes looking out the windows the clouds were so low that it was like peering through the porthole of an airplane.
I used that view as the inspiration for The Valley Of The Clouds where the hero of the trilogy – Safar Timura – lives with his family. And, from another viewpoint, the plains where Safar and his friend, King Iraj Protarus, fought the demon invaders of Esmir.
Peter had never seen a picture of the views from my window. In fact, until I wrote to him later to thank him for his marvelous work and enclosing several pictures of the view, he had no idea that I even lived in New Mexico. And yet he seized on the descriptions in the books to perfectly illustrate the covers.
When the hardcover versions of the books arrived in the mail from Great Britain and I saw the covers, it was exactly like looking out my office window.
Now that was truly remarkable. In most cases a cover artist reads the book and is pretty much free to choose what he/she thinks best describes the contents. But this… this was so close it was mind-boggling.
Dissolve to Wednesday, Sept. 8. I return home from chemo therapy, sick and tired and dragging my feet. There are two large brown shopping bags on the floor with lashings of tissue paper peeking out.
“What’s this?” I asked Kathryn, who has that sly smile on her face that I know so well. “Did you make a trip to Whole Foods, or something?”
“Or something,” Kathryn said. She handed me one of the bags. “Or maybe it’s something else,” she added.
I pulled the object out, dropping the tissue paper on the floor. When I saw what it was my heart jumped so hard I was in danger of setting off my defibrillator implant. It was the original painting of When The Gods Slept. Executed on a thin wooden board, it was as fresh and new as the day Peter painted it.
Hands a little shaky, I went to the second paper bag. And out came the original painting for Wolves of The Gods, where Safar leads his family and the villagers of The Valley Of The Clouds on a long and grueling exodus from their ancient homeland to escape annihilation.
As I stared at the two paintings, I was transported back to our house on the edge of the Gila National Forest again. Dreaming the dreams that would become the fully realized Timura Triology.
So, thank you Pam, you are a marvel.
And Kathryn: you are and will always be my once and future love.
Click the links to see what the paintings look like:
Wolves Of The Gods
Click here to visit Peter's homepage.
And here is where to get the books: When The Gods Slept: Wolves Of TheGods. Click here for the third, and final volume of The Timura Trilogy - The Gods Awaken.
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